Beliefs

Random thoughts lately...

Why would someone chase after someone else if they don't want to be

chased, or they don't like the person chasing after them to begin with?

What's the point? Why keep chasing after someone if you're not

wanted? Shouldn't you just give up and stop chasing that person if

you're not wanted?

It's my senior year of high school and I'm still seeing things that make it

hard to believe in the people of this world. Yesterday, someone brought a

gun to school. Now, the gun wasn't loaded but I seriously wonder what this

kid was thinking? Last year there were a ton a lock downs at the school

because of things related to violence and then this kid brings a gun to

school?!?! Even if the gun wasn't loaded, that's still something pretty

serious to do.

When I look at people around me, I wonder what causes them to act the

way they do- what do they believe in that makes them act so passionately?

Some believe in God, Abba, and many other types of gods. Some don't

believe there's a god at all... All I wonder though, besides the fact that

people believe in these things, is any of this true? Do any of these gods

exist? Many people point to miracles to prove the existence of their god,

but then again such acts can easily be faked now-a-days with the

technology we have. Personally I don't know what to believe. I think

there's a god somewhere out there, but can you be sure even of that? At

one point, I was wondering what if all of these people, all over the world

believed in God, but they were wrong and he doesn't exist at all. What

then? Then, all of those people would be wrong, and then all these

people who have died for what they believed in (in the past) would have

died for nothing. They would have died for believing in something that

doesn't even exist. Some would say, that what I'm saying right now is

blasphemy, but honestly I don't know anything anymore. I love the songs

of the church, its music, and the youth group, but some people honestly

don't make any sense to me. I've just been thinking about this stuff for a

long time and haven't wanted to come to a conclusion that would cause me

to hurt others that I care about. Honestly though, I'm not sure what to believe in anymore.