Sunday, February 7, 2010

The Meaning of Love

Lately, a lot of different scientists have been researching what love is.
Scientifically love is the emotions that we feel as a result of certain
chemicals/hormones firing off in our brains and through out body.
Historically, people who believe in God usually call it matrimony, when
two people are bonded for life because they have strong feelings for
each other. But then again, people have been married before that don't
care about each other let alone know each other. Those types of
marriages are usually arranged marriages...
So- what is love? Is it chemicals firing off in our brain? Is it something
that's destined to be (like Romeo and Juliet)? Or is it what you feel for
family?
In society, people are defined by their relationships- usually by how well
those relationships are going, or how many different relationships that
person is in. When you look at all the different types of relationships there
can be in society- it really makes me wonder what love is. Love can be
friendship, or someone you meet on the street that you don't know (random
acts of kindness), or it could be family or a boyfriend or fiancee. Love can
come in any shape or form, so its strange that something that can change
shape so easily, defines our lives so strongly. But then again, it's also
strange that people are so defined by who they know or what they've
done in their lives.
So what is love? Is the sexual relationship you have with somebody? Is
it marriage? Is it friendship or family ties? Is it just randomly walking by
somebody you don't know on the street? Honestly I think it could be
anyone of those things- but it could be more. I think love is something that
isn't defined by time, why? Because time has no meaning when your in
love. Yes it's true that when you're in love with someone (a boyfriend or
girlfriend) it feels like an eternity when you're away from them, but for
example, the reason why Romeo and Juliet are so famous now is
because of their impossible love. They loved each other when it
should've been impossible. One a Capulet and one a Montague- and yet
they were star crossed lovers. They were destined to be together. And so
even now, they're story is still remembered- hundreds of years later.
People who define love as just being hormones or chemicals are wrong.
It's so much more than that. Because love defines who we are to such a
degree, it should have meaning if we fall in love or even who we are in
love with. It defines us through our relationships with our friends and family.
In this way, love is powerful because it affects so many different aspects of our lives.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Beliefs

Random thoughts lately...
Why would someone chase after someone else if they don't want to be
chased, or they don't like the person chasing after them to begin with?
What's the point? Why keep chasing after someone if you're not
wanted? Shouldn't you just give up and stop chasing that person if
you're not wanted?
It's my senior year of high school and I'm still seeing things that make it
hard to believe in the people of this world. Yesterday, someone brought a
gun to school. Now, the gun wasn't loaded but I seriously wonder what this
kid was thinking? Last year there were a ton a lock downs at the school
because of things related to violence and then this kid brings a gun to
school?!?! Even if the gun wasn't loaded, that's still something pretty
serious to do.
When I look at people around me, I wonder what causes them to act the
way they do- what do they believe in that makes them act so passionately?
Some believe in God, Abba, and many other types of gods. Some don't
believe there's a god at all... All I wonder though, besides the fact that
people believe in these things, is any of this true? Do any of these gods
exist? Many people point to miracles to prove the existence of their god,
but then again such acts can easily be faked now-a-days with the
technology we have. Personally I don't know what to believe. I think
there's a god somewhere out there, but can you be sure even of that? At
one point, I was wondering what if all of these people, all over the world
believed in God, but they were wrong and he doesn't exist at all. What
then? Then, all of those people would be wrong, and then all these
people who have died for what they believed in (in the past) would have
died for nothing. They would have died for believing in something that
doesn't even exist. Some would say, that what I'm saying right now is
blasphemy, but honestly I don't know anything anymore. I love the songs
of the church, its music, and the youth group, but some people honestly
don't make any sense to me. I've just been thinking about this stuff for a
long time and haven't wanted to come to a conclusion that would cause me
to hurt others that I care about. Honestly though, I'm not sure what to believe in anymore.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Random Thoughts

Previously, I used this blog for my world lit. class, now I think I'll use it to talk about stuff going on randomly in my life. I don't know when I'll write or why, but we'll see where I go with this.
Right now, I'm supposed to be doing homework for school. I'm supposed to be writing a narrative essay for AP language and then watch some show on food network and then write about it. I am supposed to be concentrating on what I have to do, not my friend on the other side of the world, who's in Thailand right now- having the experience of a lifetime!!! I wish I could join her right now, be by her side- experiencing what she's experiencing, and be with her so that she doesn't have to be alone. But then again, who knows? She could get stronger because of all of this, because of all that she's been through. And its only the beginning.
Lately it feels like there's been a lot of new beginnings. I'm a senior in high school and just this year I went to my first high school party (drinking and all), I'll probably also go to prom which is also a first, and then another first which is seeing my friend for the last time before she leaves for a four month trip. Another first has been taking the ACT (no big deal right?- WRONG!), applying to college and being accepted to my first choice college!!! That was a big deal to me especially since I wanted to go so badly despite the possible costs and how far away from home it would be.
Mainly though, I wonder why my high school makes such a big deal out of everything. Why? It's not like it's a private school and although its a good school so far as public schools go, everything is still so serious. Year after year though it's only been getting worse. First, enforcing the dress code more; second, making it a worse offense if you're late a lot; thirdly, changing the schedule around a lot and making our school an IB school. THE WHOLE SCHOOL. Honestly, that doesn't make any sense to me. Why make the whole school an IB school? Yes I think that most of the kids could keep up with the curriculum, but in general it would be very difficult for everybody. I just hope the administrators know what they're getting themselves into. Another thing is that this year we also got a new gym- it's really great too, a seemingly labyrinth of rooms yet to be explored. And its only the beginning.